I've been reading a friend's blog, where he has been posting a series describing significant spiritual moments in his life. In one of his posts, he mentions an IV winter conference about sin that he attended at the Claremont Colleges. I didn't go to the conference, though I was aware of it. My plane ticket to school had me coming back the day after the conference began. Not a good excuse, but anyway, from what I understood from friends, the focus of the conference was on soft sins, such as anger, pride, and regret...there were 10 of them total, I think, plus or minus a few. I wish I had that sheet with all of them and their descriptions. I think that I need to revisit them. Here are 2 of them that I am reposting from my friend's blog:

Anxiety
Lack of peace springing from dwelling on some dark scenario that we think will occur in the future. Loss of hope. Fear that blocks us from obeying. A sense of foreboding & uneasiness about the future.

Despondency or Hopelessness
Believing we are at a dead end with no way out. Lack of interest in prayer, the Word, community or ministry. Slothfulness, depression.

Every sentence I read, I was thinking, that's me, that's me, that's me... particularly the despondency one. I don't think that I have no way out, though I am just sitting and waiting for that time to come. I don't even know why I feel the way that I do, though I suspect that not really caring for the work that I am currently doing in research and at my job has something to do with it. But I'm not really sure. What I know is that I am lost.